She'd be furious.. [He murmurs, not even trying to censor himself. He doesn't need to with Emma, Not as much as he might, otherwise.]

You know, lovin' her is the only thing that keeps me together anymore. And by all accounts I shouldn't be able to, right? I've lost that part of me, the part that feels?

But I do.

An, shit James was just- he's always has bee- and I can't deal with it. I can't pretend it's not a thing because it is. I've got enough to worry about, addin' him to the pile isn't helping. What if he tries something? His ticket is up just like the rest of us.