[What James deserves is all very much a matter of opinion. And oh boy does everybody have an opinion. He knows for a fact that Dean doesn't give a shit what the fight was about he just didn't want it to be happening.
But Emma keeps speaking and the topic turns to Tom, himself, and he knows she's right. On some level he can feel that he went too far and a few more strikes likely would have meant another notch in the belt for Jame's death count but fuck it- maybe then he'd understand what it was like to come back.]
Does it really matter, anymore?
[A small admission. He knows he slipped tonight. And emma has always been patient with him, listened to his rant, try to process what was going on inside him when he couldn't talk to anyone else. Didn't want to scare Jo.]
Emma, I have been trying so hard. I'm not sure I can control it anymore...and I'm not sure I care.
But we're all gonna die right? So all that matters is making sure I never become...this. All I've ever been is the outcast, and don't try an bullshit me over it, it's true. But it might not have to be. I never wanted to be.
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Date: 2014-01-04 02:29 am (UTC)But Emma keeps speaking and the topic turns to Tom, himself, and he knows she's right. On some level he can feel that he went too far and a few more strikes likely would have meant another notch in the belt for Jame's death count but fuck it- maybe then he'd understand what it was like to come back.]
Does it really matter, anymore?
[A small admission. He knows he slipped tonight. And emma has always been patient with him, listened to his rant, try to process what was going on inside him when he couldn't talk to anyone else. Didn't want to scare Jo.]
Emma, I have been trying so hard. I'm not sure I can control it anymore...and I'm not sure I care.
But we're all gonna die right? So all that matters is making sure I never become...this. All I've ever been is the outcast, and don't try an bullshit me over it, it's true. But it might not have to be. I never wanted to be.